SHamE ShaMe

SOOOO I was entirely to busy on Saturday. I had to go to a client and present an offer at 9 am no problem right WRONG!!! I didn't get home until 11:15 then I had to rush to Herriman for a family meeting and they had Clam chowder and Veggies I WAS STARVING so I had a small bowl of soup and some veggies then went to my sister to get my kids and she informed me I was staying the night and she had chicken and veggies for me to eat. WELL we were suppose to get up and go home..... that did not happen we went to get diapers and formula for Jaylan because we decided to go to the movie well once agian I was hungry nothing prepared so we went to Panda Express I got a meal and shared with my kids I was full sooner than expected, then we go to the movie so I was like well I already screwed up might as well have some popcorn......I did only have 3 handfuls...... YIKES!!! SO Monday morning I started fresh went to the gym and ate my intened meals....
Lesson 1.... ALWAYS BE PREPARED
Lesson 2.....Always BE PRepARED
Lesson 3...... IT IS OKAY TOMORROW IS ANOTHER DAY!!
Lesson 4...... I can tell that in just one week that "normal" food does something I can't expalin to your body......
LESSON 5 ALWAYS ALWAYS BE PREPARED!!!!

I have been at it for one week!!

Yesterday was my one week mark. I am too scared to get on the scale so I will be waiting a couple weeks. I want to keep the motivation I have and the scale would haunt me. I am eating my meals and working my body. I feel different, not like the other countless times I have "tried" to lose weight. THIS TIME I AM CHANGING HABITS AND MY LIFE STYLE!!! My clothes (pants) are feeling loose in the hips which is WONDERFUL. I talked to Tamara and she asked me what she could do to help me reward myself. I just want results!! I haven't had a cheat meal. Cheat meals are the reason I look the way I do. They say one won't hurt I say LOOK AT THE ONES that took drugs one time and now are hooked and WHO CAN EAT JUST ONE COOKIE LOL !!! I know that is a radical way to look at it thatis how I am feeling right now about the foods I use to eat...... TO BIG OF A TEMPTATION so I am avoiding cheat meals at the moment!

Thanks to all of you that inspire me!!!!

WOW WOW WOW

I just got back form a pumpx class at LADY FITNESS and it was AMAZING I hurt form my head to my toes afterward I cycled for some extra cardio.

Last night I had random thoughts of was this all really worth it? It is the first time I have questioned what I am doing. As I began the thought process as I was relaxing to sleep I saw bright lights and firework type motion in my head. With every BOOM sparkle BOOM BOOM I would get a burst of energy I KNOW I AM AT THE RIGHT TIME IN MY LIFE FOR THIS JOURNEY.

Dustin looked at me last night grabbed my arms and said "I probably won't notice a difference for awhile since I see you everyday". I responded " How do you think I got this fat"? Everyday leads to the next My days are starting strong and I become stronger everyday. WATCH OUT BECAUSE I AM COMING YOUR WAY!!!!

OOO THE DREAED BEFORE PIC!!!

OKAY so after 11.5 yrs of marriage 3 kids and 110#'s it is time for me to kick it in to gear! This is going to be my VENTING SPACE!! It may get personal, emotional and exciting all the while REACHING MY GOALS!!

232#'s
L arm up 15.25
L calf 18
L thigh 29
R arm 15.25
R Calf 173/4
R thigh 29
Waist 441/2
Hips and Butt 51.5